Tuesday, June 24, 2008

a baby named angel...

today is one of my down-moments...


my husband is already sleeping soundly, so early... maybe because he knows that I am grieving deep inside… he respects my moment of silence. i tried to go to sleep but i really can't...my heart is full of emotion... i wanted to cry but no tears at all... kaya heto... i hope blogging can help ease my pain away...


i can't control my feelings... i am greatly affected by the text message that i received a few hours ago... that my ate bebot has finally gave birth (after days of hard labor and pain)... but the baby died...


ate bebot is a very close family friend, sobrang close kami kasi when i was in grade 1 and she was in high school, i used to tag with her since we're on the same school. she's a dear ate to me and my sisters. Sobrang close ang mga family namin that’s why sobrang affected kami sa nangyari sa kanya.

She’s already in her late 30’s when she got pregnant. Upon knowing na pregnant siya, we were all so happy.. I even prayed to God na ok lang kung mauna siya sa akin magbuntis…. And all praise to God because she really got pregnant on her first try of fertility treatment… seeing her in maternity dresses makes me happy. Until we were all shocked when she told us on her 8th month of pregnancy na merong problema ang baby niya… hydrocephalus.

During that time, we were all shocked and sad... we told her to seek for a second opinion kasi baka nagkamali lang yong doctor, but it was confirmed that her baby has hydrocephalus… and worst of all, the doctor told her that the baby might not survive and even told her to call the baby ANGEL, and just enjoy the baby in her womb.

This morning she gave birth without having the chance to have a glimpse of her angel… the baby was already dead in her womb… Ate bebot was in critical stage for a couple of hours… and all praise to God that she is now recovering.

I can feel the pain in her heart… Just like Ate Bebot, I’ve been praying for a baby for a long time… and it really bothers me a lot just thinking how she is dealing with her trials. I just pray that baby angel will be an angel to her mother, to guide her and give her strength especially at this moment of grieving.


At last, now I can sleep…

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