my memories are gone!!!

i have two blog sites, this one is the newest... but what bothers me most is that my old blog site is gone!!! it was my memories for so many years!!! it was my diary of special moments in my life! i really don't know what happened... it feels like my past has simply swept away!!! what is happening to me??? i lost my new umbrella, i lost my cellphone, and now my blogs??? UGH!UGH!UGH!