sentiments! again?

Insensitive? Stupid? Devil? Or Asshole!!! Hahaha!!! I can’t find the most appropriate words to match to people I hate! People like HELL! Do I sound so angry??? Inhale… Exhale… Inhale… Exhale… Damn!

I’m in my usual afternoon delight (LOL). Chatting with my YM friends and my sister Janice while browsing my friendster account and visiting blog sites, when suddenly, a YM buddy went online and sent me an IM. My cousin… I’ll call her M. She’s on my list of buddies for so long but hasn’t had a chat with her even once. First time… and she’s busted already!!! I think my blood went up to my head! She has just ruined my day!

When M buzzed me, I was excited at first since we haven’t seen each other for months already. M and I were classmates in High School and College. She already has 2 sons and a jobless husband! Do I sound mean? I am sorry, I know it’s not a good thing to say since I myself is also jobless! Hahaha!!! But in my case it’s by choice! And I am a housewife! Unlike for some people who knew that they have so much obligations, but instead of working for the family, keeps lying in bed all day long! Just like a househusband??? LOL!LOL!LOL!

GOD, Please forgive me! I just wanted to take away the anger in me! If not, I think my mind could blow up!!! If this is the way to ease my pain and anger, please let it be! AMEN!

Months of no communication, all I got was stress! HAHAHA! She asked why there is no baby yet for me. I answered her usual answer such as… In God’s time… No blessing yet… I’m patient… I don’t lose hope… I’m not tired of waiting…etc… but she’s so stupid to prolong the discussion and told me that she’s working hard to save more money since Christmas is fast approaching. So I told her, “why are you doubling your effort to work so hard? You only have 2 kids”. Good thing I am not so mean like her, I should have said…”why don’t you tell your husband to look for a job so that she can help you earn for the family?” But I’m not like that….I’d rather keep my silence! Or I’d rather speak it up in my blogs! Just like what I’m doing right now! She told me that she needs to work hard for the gifts she needs to buy for the ascending numbers of her godchildren. It’s not a bad idea or bad words to say, but until she said some things which I hate to hear the most, such as...I am already waiting for your child… I will volunteer to be a godmother… What’s taking you so long?... You should double your effort… and the worst thing of all??? Are you the one with the problem? Or your husband??? STUPID!!! IDIOT!!! Everybody’s welcome to tag a name to this unworthy creature!!!

I know I’ve been used to this scenarios… For the longest time, I’ve been numb, deaf and mute! I thought I’ve taken things like this lightly… I thought I could just smile and laugh with it… but all things have limitations. Just imagine me against a dozen or more of stupid people! I am widely open when it comes to issues of my being childless but to a certain point that not all people I know can have equal share of my stories in life. In my blogs, I don’t hide anything about my emotions, anger, pain, worries and sentiments. Some may feel offended and others may feel sensitive especially to some entries wherein I am vocal about how I wanted things to be when it comes to being tactful and considerate with my feelings. But if you are really a friend, you need not to worry about the negative things that you’ve read in my blogs, IT”S DEFINITELY NOT MEANT FOR YOU!!! You need not to feel guilty or offended if you know that you are with me in my trials and journey. You know what you are and who you are in my life!!!! Unless, you are not sincere and honest with me… I need not pity nor empathy… I just want a TRUE FRIEND. Someone who reaches my hands, but touches my heart.

strawberry mania!

Why strawberry? It all started with my "addiction" to strawberry flavored foods, drinks and shakes... anything that has strawberry! I love the taste of strawberry... strawberry ice creams, lollipops, candies and even chocolates with strawberry bits (especially the hershey's chocolate with strawberry). Most of my friends laugh about my addiction with strawberry flavored foods and drinks, for them it's an awful taste, it's like medicine!! hahaha!!! I don't care! i love strawberry to the max... I remember, my mother-in-law bought fresh strawberries, it was a little bit expensive since we don't have strawberries in our local market. She made strawberry shake and no one was interested with it except me. LOL! From that time on, whenever she buys ice cream, she doesn't forget to buy strawberry flavored ice-cream. hehehe! I always have strawberry syrup in my fridge, i love to make fruit flavored gelatins with cream and glaze it with strawberry syrup (but chocolate syrup for my hubby).

Then goes my addiction with strawberries! I am so fond of kiddie stuffs... I find STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE so cute! My cousin Jasmin gave me a big strawberry shortcake sticker.


Before, i was so fond of ELMO of Sesame Street... I used to collect Elmo stuffs... but I got tired of it for some reasons and I gave away some of those to my cousins who also loves Elmo except for the those which were given to me as gifts (the stuffed toy and mug that my husband gave me, the elmo pillow given to me by Laarni-my sister in law and the tote bag given by my sister Janice. Of course I treasure gifts given to me by special people in my heart. OOWWWSSSS!


My strawberry collection started a year ago, and while I was cleaning my stuffs, i realized that I have more than a dozen already and i got so excited I took pictures of my collection. Some of those I bought and some were given by my friends. The very first in my collection was the strawberry shirt I bought in greenhills. I actually bought it not because of the strawberry but because it's pink. LOL! PINK! PINK! PINK! Another collection!!! I'll tell it in my next blog! Just a teaser on how I'm so crazy with pink? We have a dog. A doberman. Her name is PINK! LOL!

Back with my strawberry! In the picture, I was with my friend Mayla, who actually bought a shirt with a strawberry to match up with my shirt! how sweet! and she also gave me the plastic cup, earrings and coasters with strawberry prints.

i'm sure !!! more strawberry stuffs to come in the future!!!

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it's been quite a while since my last blog... I've been busy these past few days. So many things happened but no time to sit-and-blog!!!! Anyway, what I've been busy about???

Last Saturday, we had a party for my sister Ara... it was a rush party!!! they just wanted to enjoy and savor the moment, so they don't want to wait for the oath-taking ceremony which will be on Sept. 3! good thing that an instant party is never a problem for us since my mother is good at it! plus with the help of my tita merly... but still it was a bit stressful! Imagine, we only had 24-hr-preparation time. But it was just a small party for friends and relatives... It was fun... I ordered 2 dozens white and green balloons (I especially ordered 1 white balloon for MAKI-Ara's bestfriend, but unfortunately it blew up before he arrived! hahaha! a "kind-hearted" Jovy (hehehe) added the decorations with her "balloon-decorating-hobby"... beautiful balloons! We almost forgot about the balloons... the party already started and the balloons were waiting at the room! hehehe She actually promised that she'll make lots and lots of beautiful balloons for my baby's parties... and again for free!!! UGH!!! HAHAHA!!! Silly girl!!! Who knows???? maybe in the YEARS to come!!! As in years!!! At least, there is still hope... oh!!! well... No Sunday Recipe since we woke up late, tired and feeling "bobby"!!! BABLOY!!! But it was a revelation day for my sister Ara!!! She can actually sing! hahaha! i didn't know what happened to her!!! Videoke Queen!!! Imagine, singing out loud from 8am to 5pm!!! kawawa naman kapitbahay ko!!!

Again, yesterday, No cooking 101! i forgot to buy ingredients for my Sunday Recipe!!! I went out to meet with my friends Mayla and Marycel... Nothing so important, just to see each other and tsika tsika endlessly and not to forget window shopping!!! just window shopping!!!hehehe When I got home, I was surprised to see my sister-in-law and her son Ethan watching TV with my husband Ernie. We had a good time watching TV while playing with Ethan and eating hotdogs and bacon sandwich and C2 and Fit 'n right!!!(that's all I got in my Ref! hehehe) Good thing, I bought Jollibee french fries! That's Ethan's favorite!

Actually, I don't know why I am writing my blog today without passion!!! at the corner of my screen i see "1:28 AM" but i can't sleep! I don't know what's bothering me!! I just ate 2-pc crackers and hot milk but still even if i shut my eyes, it's hard to sleep... ernie's already snoring to the maximum level! hahahha! kakainggit!! maybe because i've just watched a true to life movie about the 2004 tsunami in thailand!!!!! I don't know why i am so engrossed in watching movies about natural calamaties/disasters!!!hahaha!!! Kalokah!!!

i know something is bothering me!!! I think I've found the reason why i can't sleep... i can now picture it on my mind... i gotta slip on my bed and blanket since now i have something to think of for me to be sleepy...

hayyyy!!! i'm going crazy!!! that's me!! i should have something to think about for me to get a real sleep!!!

O! naloka ka??? Nonsense di ba??? Hahaha !!! Sorry!!!